Tantra: the art of connection 🔗

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Tantra - The sacred universal sexual connection between man and woman A practice where meditation is the key to the spiritual orgasm, the opening of the heart 💚.

It’s not about a ‘happy ending’🎆 … it’s about rising the energy up to the heart … a mind-blowing heart explosion 💥

Tantra. A word that makes many floaty yoga types moan with enlightenment and is used in spiritual Casanova circles 💘 as the ultimate pussy pass 🐈‍⬛. Once, I thought I had hit the jackpot 🎰 with a man who called himself a ‘master’ in Tantra. What a gift from the universe! Or so I thought 🪣. In reality, I received a present with a hidden warning label: ‘Caution! Contains manipulation, gaslighting, and abuse wrapped in a spiritual disguise.’ ⚠️

What is Tantra really:

Tantra is an ancient spiritual tradition originating from India and Tibet. The word "Tantra" literally means "weaving" or "continuity" and refers to integrating body, mind, and soul into a deeper state of awareness. Contrary to popular belief, Tantra is not just about sexuality—it is a complete spiritual path that works with energy, consciousness, and connection.

Real Tantra teaches us:

✨ To be consciously present in every moment.

✨ To see the sacred in the ordinary – everything can be a spiritual experience.

✨ The balance between masculine and feminine energies - ♂ Shiva & Shakti ♀.

✨ Deep connection with yourself, your partner, and the universe.

✨ Transformation and healing through breathwork, meditation, and energy mastery.

Sexuality is only one aspect of Tantra and is seen as a gateway to spiritual growth, not the ultimate goal.

🥥 introduced Tantra into my life, but not as a path to deep connection and spiritual growth. No, for him, it was an excuse to indulge in his desires under the guise of ‘sacred sexuality,’ preferably with multiple women. And I, searching for healing and true connection, walked straight into the trap with open eyes. ‘It’s all love,’ he whispered while slowly breaking me down, making me believe I wasn’t enlightened enough if I resisted. Manipulation disguised as spiritual awakening – the perfect mindfuck 🤯.

How to recognize real Tantra?

✅ Real Tantra is patient and respectful – no pressure, no coercion.

✅ Real Tantra is about connection, not domination or power.

✅ Real Tantra respects personal boundaries and consent.

✅ Real Tantra focuses on spiritual growth, not just sex.

Tantra is a path of awareness and loving presence, not of manipulation or abuse.

Tantra is not an excuse for sexual abuse. It is not a free pass to cross boundaries under the pretense of ‘energetic exchange.’ True Tantra is not about sexual desire but about deep presence, connection, and divine energy. Something most ‘Tantric masters’ conveniently forget to mention. Tantra is about balancing masculine and feminine, uniting opposites, and transcending the ego. It’s not some quick fix to land in someone’s bed under the illusion of spiritual enlightenment. But of course, that doesn’t sell as well.

How manipulators "sell" Tantra:

⚠️ "You need to fully surrender to grow spiritually." → Used to undermine consent and personal boundaries.

⚠️ "Tantra is about sexual liberation, so you can’t have blockages." → Pressuring someone into sexual acts they don’t want.

⚠️ "I am your spiritual guide; you’re not advanced enough to understand this yet." → Gaslighting to maintain power.

⚠️ "Jealousy is ego; you need to learn to share in love." → Often used to pressure partners into polyamory against their will.

⚠️ "By having sex with me, you receive a spiritual initiation." → Used as an excuse for sexual abuse.

This form of spiritual manipulation and sexual abuse has nothing to do with real Tantra but is an ego-driven misinterpretation of the teachings.

Because that’s where it goes wrong. It’s always the same script: the ‘wise’ Tantric man guiding his female disciples into ‘surrender.’ And that surrender inevitably means: let me do whatever I want, no questions asked. And if you resist? Well, then you’re just not far enough on your spiritual journey. Because if you were truly enlightened, you’d understand that this is pure divine energy.

Newsflash: the only divine thing about this energy is how well it’s wrapped in flowery words so that women don’t even realize they’re being manipulated. ⚡

Did you know?:

A man loses his energy, his life force, with every ejaculation? In Taoist tradition, semen is considered a reservoir of jing, or essential life energy. Each ejaculation depletes a portion of this energy, which can leave a man feeling weaker, tired, or mentally unfocused.

In Tantric and yogic traditions, ojas is considered a subtle life essence that diminishes with excessive ejaculation. After abstinence, a man experiences higher energy levels, sharper focus, and greater mental discipline.

For many men (especially those with a high sex drive = ‘basically every man if you ask them’ 🧩), the drop in dopamine after an orgasm often triggers the urge to seek out a new stimulus to replenish their dopamine levels. This contributes to the ‘hunting instinct’ and the need to find a new sexual partner. Something we’d rather not see in our men, right? 🤔

For women, it works a little differently, both biologically and energetically. Many spiritual traditions suggest that women do not lose energy through sexual activity; rather, they can build and amplify energy through orgasms.

In Taoism, it is said that female sexual energy is more circular, while male energy is outward-flowing. This means that women can circulate and redistribute their energy during sex and orgasms, whereas men deplete their jing energy more quickly with ejaculation.

Tantra sees female energy as Shakti, the creative and life-giving force, which is activated and nourished through orgasms rather than drained.

Have you noticed that Tantric masters are popping up like mushrooms? You can’t walk down the street or scroll through Instagram without BAM – there’s another one. Complete with dreamy stares, floaty metaphors, and a course on ‘enlightened orgasms in 7 steps.’ As if we’ve all collectively forgotten that Tantra is not necessarily an invitation to a linen-robed gangbang.

I should know. I had eight years of intensive training from the ultimate Tantra-master-of-abuse: Mister Coconut 🥥. The man had more spiritual excuses than a Catholic priest on confession day.

🧞 ‘You need to surrender more to the energy.’ Oh really? And maybe you need to surrender to a reality check.

🧞 ‘Your resistance means you are not spiritually mature.’ No honey, it means my intuition is screaming that you’re a smooth-talking fraud.

And yet, I admit it, I fell for it. Because who doesn’t want to believe in sacred connection and higher love? But when you end up with bruises and an energetic burnout after yet another ‘holy’ laying of hands, you start to see the game. My bullshit detector is now finely tuned.

So, to all the wannabe Tantric gurus who think they can drop their pants under the pretense of ‘Shakti activation’: I see you. And I am not impressed.

When can a woman lose energy?

🚩 If the sexual experience is not aligned with her emotional and spiritual needs, she may feel drained or exhausted.

🚩 In relationships with an energetically unbalanced partner (for example, a partner who "takes" more than he "gives"), a woman may unconsciously give away her energy.

🚩 Unconscious patterns, such as pleasing a partner without receiving any fulfillment in return, can also cause energy loss.

I think many of us (myself included) in a search for spiritual growth, healing, or just a deeper connection, end up with someone who presents themselves as a kind of master or guide. You know, that person who seems to know exactly what you're looking for and makes you feel like they hold the key to the universe (or in my case, to your own inner soul). In my case, that was 🥥, who presented himself as a "Tantric master" who supposedly knew the path to enlightenment.

But here’s the thing: while you think you are in the hands of someone who is helping you develop spiritually, it sometimes turns out that you are just a tool for someone’s ego and sexual desires. I mean, you believe in the magic of Tantra and think this is the sacred path to inner peace... until you realize that your guide may be more interested in "awakening" his own desires than in your healing.

Let me take you to a funny (but also embarrassing) moment 🤦‍♀️ that I’d actually rather forget, but in hindsight is so absurd that you can only laugh about it. I remember a session where 🥥 “invited” me to connect more deeply with my body. In other words: I had to release something supernatural from my body, a sort of spiritual exorcism lite. According to him, there was always some kind of “angry energy” stuck that needed urgent liberation. 👀

So there I was, with my eyes half-closed trying to look enlightened and receptive, while he—how shall I put this—performed a peculiar ritual. 🥥 had developed a habit where he would start shaking like a trembling house next to a railway track. 🚆💨 A kind of human earthquake. And apparently, the rule was: the harder you shook, the more spiritual you were.

I quickly realized that this was my ticket to getting through these sessions without too much hassle. So I played along. Not too enthusiastically, but just enough to keep him satisfied. Fake it till you make it, right? 😏 But after a while, simply shaking was no longer enough. The bar was suddenly raised. It was time to upgrade.

And then came the moment suprême: the introduction of a new Tantric position. I would describe it as something between “Karma 8” and the “Karma Swing” 🎭 (and believe me, Google was no help here 🪨). Picture this: we were both lying flat on our backs, but with our heads at each other’s feet. Romantic, right? Well, it felt more like an acrobatic exercise than a profound spiritual experience. 🤸‍♀️

And then came the real test. I felt he was waiting for something. But what? I'm super sensitive to energy, and if I feel that someone wants something and I don't get it, it makes me insecure. So I thought: Okay, time to bring out the theatrical skills. I started shaking again. But no, that wasn’t enough. “Surrender and feel deeply into your body,” he whispered in his most spiritual voice. 🧨

Right. That felt uncomfortable, to say the least. But by now, I had figured out that resisting only led to long, exhausting conversations about how I needed to “let go of my ego.” So I stepped it up a notch: bigger movements, more intense hip rolls, arms moving as if I were summoning some kind of shamanic storm. 🌪️🌀

And then it happened: I looked in the mirror and saw myself. Not as a divine Tantric goddess, not as an enlightened disciple on the path to enlightenment. No. What I saw looked more like a low-budget remake of The Exorcist. 😵‍💫 My head tilted back almost entirely, my body moving like a possessed being, and at that moment, I realized: this is absurd. This is not a spiritual connection, this is a performance. A play in which I was playing the role of the ‘spiritually submissive woman’ to let him believe in his illusion.

And you know what’s crazy? Over the years, I had learned how to channel my own energy. Not toward him, not toward his desire, but toward my heart. 💖 While he thought he was in control, I was discovering my own power. He never understood that true healing is not in pain, if that pain only serves to maintain control. No love, no connection—only manipulation wrapped in a spiritual sauce. 🧏🐍

🥥 wanted everything to go exactly as he had envisioned: no dialogue, no real alignment, no tenderness—only pain and discipline. But what he didn’t know is that even in the strangest, most uncomfortable, manipulative situations, transformation is possible. Not by “shaking” the way he wanted, but by following my own energy. 🔥

And this is where the danger lies: the idea that believing in spiritual growth can easily blur the lines between real healing and manipulation. This isn’t just spiritual bypassing, this is pure abuse wrapped in a spiritual disguise. And that disguise is tempting because who wouldn’t want to be in the arms of a “guide” who claims to help you unlock new dimensions of your consciousness while actually just pursuing his own agenda?

In the end, I came to an important realization: it’s not just important to think critically in relationships, but also in your spiritual journey. You don’t have to believe everything someone says, even if they present themselves as an enlightened soul. We need to be aware of the signs of manipulation and abuse, even when they come in the form of loving words or spiritual insights.

So, the real conclusion here? Critical thinking is your most powerful weapon in this world of charlatans. Make sure you follow your own path, with common sense, and without relying too much on others who claim to help you but are actually just satisfying their own desires. It’s not always easy, but it’s definitely healthier! 💥

Spiritual Bypassing vs Spiritual Abuse:

🔹 Spiritual bypassing refers to the misuse of spirituality to avoid personal shadow work, traumas, or responsibilities.

➡️ Example: A "tantra master" who claims that jealousy or setting boundaries is a sign of spiritual immaturity, while he is actually trying to exert power over someone.

🔹 Spiritual abuse is a much more serious issue, where someone consciously uses their spiritual knowledge or status to manipulate, control, or deceive others.

➡️ Example: A "guru" or tantra teacher who claims that sex with him is a form of "energy healing," while in reality, he is pursuing his own desires.

How to recognize this?

✅ Gaslighting under the guise of enlightenment – "Your resistance to me means you’re not spiritually advanced enough yet.”

✅ Boundary-crossing behavior packaged as spiritual practice – "You need to let go of your ego and surrender to my guidance.”

✅ Sexual manipulation under the flag of tantra – "Your sexual energy must be activated by me.”

✅ Use of spiritual concepts to maintain power – "If you were truly enlightened, you’d understand why I’m doing this.”

Once you get this information, who would still want to believe that THE MAN is the tantra master, the teacher… 🤮. The natural nature of man is that of a hunter, always looking for his prey. The woman, on the other hand, is the nurturer, the bridge between heaven and earth. For her, it is her natural state, but for the man, it is a transformation.

A woman’s sexual energy comes from the deep, creative, life-giving force that flows within her.

The woman lives in her sexual power, while the man must learn to suppress, control, and master his animalistic sexual instincts. This means the woman holds the upper hand – she represents the absolute Goddess who can lead the man and teach him how to treat her as the Goddess she is, with the highest respect she deserves. 👑✨

We talk about equal rights, but women are still oppressed in this society. Her sexual power is not accepted, and the sexual pleasure of the man is still prioritized. We are still given the idea that the man is the leader… in everything. But my feeling, all the way from my toes to my soul, says loud and clear: the woman is the true leader in the dance of lovers. 💃🔥

She sets the rules, she determines the flow, she is the gateway to the highest pleasure, the life force, the Shakti.

Even my manipulative failed tantra master tried to make me believe so hard that a woman could only reach her orgasm through the magical rod 🍆 of the man… 😣. SERIOUSLY? BARF 🤢.

According to his "tantric rules," a clitoral orgasm was even considered Devilish 😈. What nonsense! Now I firmly say: Fuck off, buddy.

I followed his guidance for years, but the only result was exhaustion, suppression, and the loss of my feminine power. Honestly, in every relationship where the woman is led by the man towards sexual connection, there will never be divine pleasure.

Is this ego? No, this is a deep immersion in the process itself, going through hell and crawling back to heaven.

One thing is certain: there is no path I haven’t walked, no side road I haven’t ventured down. I have opened every door, looked, lived through, and felt through it, and each time, I came back to my own truth.

Tantra is pure and can only truly be experienced between a man and a woman who sincerely and honestly want to connect in harmony with the Universal divine. 🙏✨

The real tantric connection between man and woman is only possible between couples who choose each other 200% and want to walk the same path together. It’s not about what happens ‘in the bedroom,’ but about a deep, sincere choice to support each other in the journey of growth and spiritual discovery. Tantra is about purifying the energy between two people who open up fully to each other, not about sharing that energy with others.

So, threesomes, foursomes, whatever… that’s not tantra. It’s just a spiritual glaze hiding abuse and deception. It might seem attractive on the surface, but it’s far from the sacred connection that tantra truly is. It’s a distraction from the real power that arises when two souls come together in complete devotion and trust. 💞✨

A tantrica can be a teacher, guide, or practitioner who follows the path of tantra and helps others experience that deep, holistic connection. It’s about meditation, breathing techniques, rituals, touch, sexual energy — all aimed at promoting consciousness and spiritual growth.

But the truth is, a tantrica, in my eyes, is a Woman – with a capital W. A woman who has already connected with the real, sincere truth of divine sexuality.

What I have learned is that a tantrica can teach others the basics of tantra, let the energy flow through tantra massage. But, and I say this with all seriousness, No Happy Ending - I’m Sorry. Tantra is not about that kind of superficial satisfaction. It’s about a pure explosion in the heart frequency 💚 and maybe a stairway to heaven 🙏🏻. That is the way to the higher goal.

And here’s where it really gets to the point: women who offer tantric massages but let the man climax are, in my eyes, little more than prostitutes, wrapped in a spiritual cloak. 🎭 It’s sick to abuse tantra in that way. I would say – ‘Get back on your pillow 🧘🏼‍♀️ and pray to God🧎‍♀️’ – because this is not a path to enlightenment, it’s a path to darkness. 🌑

When I met 🥥, I found out that he had let E. come multiple times during a tantric massage. When I asked him how it went, his only explanation was that "she liked to run to the edge." Basically, it was pure sexual satisfaction, that was the unspoken answer.

He once admitted that she wasn’t ‘pretty’ enough for him, and when they eventually had sex, he hid her head. My opinion: Apart from the ‘outward beauty’ aspect, a woman who calls herself a tantrica cannot be beautiful if she is abusing the teachings.

I never met her, but even from a distance, I felt it wasn’t right.

And with everything I know now, I feel especially angry. 😡 This is not what tantra should be. This is not a spiritual journey, this is the abuse of people’s vulnerability and the abuse of spiritual energy.

Let me tell you this, you’re misusing people's vulnerability, you fucking assholes, and the spiritual energy. It’s like cutting down all the trees in the world so that only toxic energies can be breathed in. This is not a path to enlightenment, it’s a path to chaos. ⚡

🥥 in his fucking mindset thought every woman should be trained into a sexual goddess through penetration. You’d think we’re in the 21st century, but no, this kind of thinking is as old as the earth itself. He had taken over that teaching from Azar Baksh, a man who calls himself "The Heart himself" – what a self-proclaimed title, but in my eyes, he’s a failed guru with a huge mother complex, a manipulator who has absolutely no control over his sexual drives. A man who thinks a woman is worth nothing without him, or in other words: without "him." Because just like 🥥, Azar thinks he owns the only sacred 🍆 on Earth.

I’ve read enough from Azar to know that the way he speaks about women is just disgusting, and his energy… you can feel it from miles away, just by seeing his picture.

If Azar were to read this, he would say that I’m the problem. Yes, I’m the one who can’t receive him – and you know what? That’s true. Men like Azar and 🥥, I can never receive them again. They are like all narcissists and manipulators: the other is always the problem. 🔄

Azar’s theory goes wrong right from the concept of "Earthly women" and "Heart women." If you’re already lost in the Rainbow community 🌈, you can certainly no longer find your way in Azar’s ‘spiritual’ theory.

According to him, Earthly women are the sensual, sexually unleashed women who are totally lost without the man – because according to him, every woman is lost without a man (or in his words, "him").

And the Heart women? The “reliable,” well-balanced housewives who have already discovered the heart frequency – of course, thanks to "him."

And, surprisingly, these two types of women are, according to Azar, necessary in the life of the man. And voilà, here comes the trio story again. The Earthly woman cannot be transformed without the Heart woman, and vice versa. And the man can’t stand on his feet without both (which might still be a fact 🧐). The first free pass to the man who must own multiple women.

When 🥥 asked Azar for advice on how to build his ‘female empire,’ I felt my hair stand on end and my stomach turn. 😱 My whole body screamed in protest at his sickening statements. A few gems from his theory, I’m sharing here, but believe me—there’s more to come. This deserves a new story on its own. 📖

But for now, let’s avoid letting your brain 🤯 short-circuit in his mystical gibberish.

I know… that confusion, that vague spiritual lingo. It all seems to be about some deeply hidden wisdom, but in reality, it’s just a pot of abuse, flavored with a heavy dose of manipulation. 🍲

So if you’re going through it, take my word for it: read diagonally. Just a quick scan, enough to glance at the absurdity without losing yourself in the whirlpool of ‘divine’ bullshit. I wouldn’t want you to accidentally force your third eye open from frustration. 👁️

Here are the key terms and manipulation techniques from the text, summarized briefly:

1. Spiritually Wrapped Subjugation

   1. 'Relational Servitude to the Woman' → The man claims to serve the woman, but in reality, he places himself in the role of guide and leader.

   2. 'The Woman’s Surrender to the Man' → He claims that resistance from the woman is natural but must eventually disappear. This is a manipulative way to break boundaries.

   3. 'The Man Represents the Formless, the Woman the Form' → A hierarchy in which the man is presented as spiritually superior.

      
      

2. Gaslighting and Responsibility Reversal

   1. 'Resistance from the Woman is natural, but must be respected…' while still forcing her into surrender.

   2. 'The Man Must Learn to Handle the Forms in the Woman – such as distractions, fear, power games, dramas, and even sexuality' → This portrays every natural boundary, emotion, or resistance from the woman as an obstacle the man must 'overcome'.

   3. 'The Man Establishes, Reveals, and Nurtures Love' → This takes control of the relationship and places the 'blame' on the woman if she doesn't surrender.

      
      

3. Sexuality as a Spiritual Weapon

   1. 'Sex Triggers Things in a Woman that Otherwise Stay Untouched' → Sex is presented as a spiritual healing process, blurring boundaries.

   2. 'The Woman Becomes Extremely Attractive as She Opens Sexually' → This puts pressure on the woman to surrender and confirms the man in his position.

   3. 'The Few Moments She Opened... a Confirmation of Where I Have Always Stood' → Sexual surrender is seen as proof of his spiritual ‘strength’.

In short: He wraps manipulation in spiritual terms, reverses responsibility, and uses 'surrender' as a method to blur boundaries. These are classic techniques of spiritual abuse. ⚠️

Let me briefly translate it through my own eyes and experiences:

• 'The Woman is Drama' - Okay, sure.

• 'The Woman Can't Survive Without the Man, She Needs His Guidance' - So, without him, she's just a walking zombie. Really, very spiritual.

• 'The Man is Pure Heart, the Woman is...' - uh, yeah... dead without him. Because, you know, the man is just the center of the universe. It's all about him.

• 'Good News: Sex is Always Good.' - The mantra of life: Go for it 🍌

• 'Sex with Multiple Women... No Problem.' - Gangbang, bitches 🐒. Yeah, this sounds very spiritual and enlightened, right?

This is just a sliver of the veil of his own "The Heart Himself" teachings. But don't worry, in a future story, I'll gladly dive deeper into the Azar story—with snorkel and all. 🏊‍♀️ Because believe me, that pool is full of shady situations.

And most importantly, I want to warn you about the sexual abuse that floats like a thick blob of cream on top of the spiritual soup. Or better yet: a spoiled broth that you’d better not dip your spoon into. 🚫

Does this also smell like cult energy to you? Or am I not the only one who sees that cult leaders often lean heavily on a narcissistic profile, driven by an insatiable hunger for adoration? 😈 Men like Azar and 🥥 would make perfect cult leaders. They sprinkle mystical words, paint themselves as enlightened guides, but in the end, their ‘spiritual path’ turns into a highly personal gangbang of devotion and surrender. 🙄

If you look closely, the manipulation is dripping off. They deliberately target emotionally vulnerable prey—people who crave meaning, love, or healing. 💔 They sell 'enlightenment', but the price is sky-high: your boundaries, your autonomy, and in many cases, your body.

The trick? A subtle game of mental conditioning. First, they break you down with spiritual gaslighting—your doubts are ego, your resistance is a block, your boundaries are a sign you're not 'awakened' yet. And then they build you back up, but only within their own doctrine. 🧠

And before you know it, you’re standing in a circle, in white robes, chanting mantras, while the ‘master’ convinces you that sexual surrender is the ultimate spiritual liberation. 😵 But let’s be honest: if someone claims that enlightenment goes through their bedroom, it’s time to put your shoes on 👟 and run the hell away. 🏃‍♀️

When I first connected with 🥥, I thought it was me, that I couldn’t yet understand the language of God. You had to feel the words, right? Because who doesn’t want to uncover the secret, mystical truth through a deconstruction of illusions? In reality, it was just a bunch of spiritual jargon, one after the other, making your partner completely disoriented, with no idea what you're talking about. 🤷‍♀️

You can ask a few more times: “What do you mean?” But by the third time, you just say, “Yes, yes, of course,” and before you know it, you're straight into their web of illusions. 🕸️

And you know, here’s the golden advice from Aunt Kaat: If you’re lost in the vocabulary, look closely at the body language. 🕵️‍♀️ What you see there is the real meaning behind their delusional energy. What they say is all fluff, but what their body radiates is the truth.

After eight years of observation, I earned my master’s degree in spiritual bullshit. 🎓 I can tell you, it almost feels like a career choice.

And if you don’t understand what Azar means with his "enlightened words"? Well, here’s the ultimate translation:

Just fuck around with as many women as you want 🙏🏻. Voilà.

Let’s take a good look at it. A man and woman constantly switching sexual partners, lost in the jungle of physical desires, are in my eyes far from the tantric path. Energetically, it’s pure chaos. 🌪️

It’s a spider web of cords that connect you to every sexual partner, all unconsciously, but oh so powerfully. And trust me, those connections are not always healthy.

But... the real, pure man or woman who submits to tantra can walk this path alone, without a partner. That’s not isolation; it’s inner transformation. 🌱

This doesn’t mean that a tantric partnership isn’t powerful – on the contrary. A deep, tantric relationship between two lovers can be the most beautiful connection you can experience. It’s like the perfect symphony 🎶, where masculine and feminine energy come together and intertwine in a harmonious dance 💃🕺 of love and respect.

And then comes the story of Mary Magdalene. Yes, that same Mary Magdalene who has been portrayed through history as the ‘whore’ (or some other label that didn’t come close to who she truly was).

But here’s the truth we don’t often hear: Mary Magdalene was a high priestess of the Goddess. 🌺 She was trained in the sacred art of sexual energy, spiritual healing, and mystical initiations. What many don’t know is that she underwent an initiation into the Egyptian Isis priesthood, where secret knowledge was taught – knowledge that could lead the way to enlightenment. ✨

Mary Magdalene was the wife of Jesus Christ, but their relationship went much deeper than the conventional idea of ‘the woman behind the man’. They had an intimate, spiritual, and even sexual bond – one that allowed them to embody the divine feminine energy together.

In tantric philosophy, sexual union is seen as a channel to the divine, where masculine and feminine energies merge. 💖 In some esoteric circles, it is even claimed that Jesus and Mary Magdalene walked a tantric path together, not purely sexually, but as a way to achieve spiritual enlightenment and divine union. 🕊️

And honestly? Mary Magdalene has always been a source of inspiration for me. She remains a force that always gives me goosebumps and brings tears to my eyes. 🦋 Her energy is undeniably powerful, even felt in today’s energetic field. 🌟

During my journey through Egypt, I was strongly drawn to the energy of the goddess Isis, and it was no wonder that this energy was eventually permanently etched on my body as a symbol of my life path. ✒️

🔹 Isis represents:

• Goddess of Magic and Mysticism 🌀 – Isis was revered as a powerful magician who possessed knowledge of secret spells and rituals.

• Protector and Mother Figure 🤱 – As the ultimate mother and protector, she was later seen as a universal mother figure, a symbol of care and strength.

• Goddess of Love and Vitality ❤️ – Her energy was connected to fertility, sensuality, and feminine creation – pure life.

• Healing and Rebirth ✨ – Isis had the power to give life, to restore, and was often called upon for healing and protection.

Her power is timeless. It is an energy that flows through the ages and is still felt, even in our daily lives. It is the energy of transformation, of healing what is broken, and finding your inner strength.

🥥 often accused me of being a nun because I no longer wanted to give in to his sick fantasies in recent years. "You had Isis tattooed on your body," he would say, "then behave like a sex goddess."

His words always came full of disapproval, as if my tattoo were an invitation to make his perverse fantasies a reality. But what he didn’t understand was that the power of Isis has nothing to do with falling into his desires. My tattoo was a symbol of something much deeper – it was a connection to divine feminine energy, a power about creation, protection, and healing, not about submission to someone else's sexuality. 🌸

He often spoke about tantric priestesses but had no real idea what that meant. A tantric priestess is the opposite of a whore – she is a sacred woman who stands in her own power and uses her sexual energy for spiritual transformation, not to please the desires of a man. 🔥

In my opinion, he may have taken the Bible a bit too literally in his statements about Mary Magdalene. Or maybe it was just his own fantasy that found this more appealing than the real meaning of the teachings of Isis. 🕊️

Maybe it was easier for him to cling to a distorted image of femininity – one that confirmed his power fantasies, rather than understanding the real strength and depth of feminine energy. But that’s not my path. ✨

The real realization of what my path truly was became clear when a friend talked about tantra massages (in my view, again a lady of pleasure wrapped in a spiritual cloak).

My entire body screamed, but at the same time, I felt fear in recognizing my path: ‘This is what you should do!’ Not like him. Not like her. But as it should be.

Because no one knows better than I do how it should NOT be. And no one better than a woman who does not operate from sexual lust because that is not her nature. 🌿 A woman is sensual, not because she must be, but because she simply is. Her sexuality is a flow, not an achievement. 💧 But in a world where everything serves male desire, tantra becomes a marketing trick, a spiritual lure to blur boundaries. 🚨

Just like Isis, the Goddess Durga is also inked on my body, felt in my blood – the warrior goddess who destroys what is impure. 🗡️ Isis whispers her ancient wisdom in my ear. And whenever Mary Magdalene appears, I feel chills across my skin and tears in my eyes. This is the Universe speaking. ✨

It is time to restore honor to tantra. To protect women from spiritual predators who fool them into thinking surrender equals submitting to their will. To teach men what true masculine energy is, without the toxic masks of power and manipulation.

To return to the essence of sacred sexuality – not as a technique, not as a tool, but as a state of being. 🌙

My story is not a victim story. It is a revelation. A wake-up call. 🔔 Tantra is a path of divine embodiment, not spiritual abuse. And if I need to decapitate a few egos with Durga’s sword for that, so be it. 🦸‍♀️

To be continued...